only now have i begun to embrace my weirdness
i feel as though i am a dog
but i walk on my hind legs
i speak about the way things used to be and
an intellectual ambiguity


>like the relation of ghost to mist

i wish i wasn't such a nervous wreck
i wish i could feel again
my heart needs a jump start
how can i find my self in this sadness
all that's left is my own madness

we take for granite all the gifts we are given
image being born with out vocal cords
or the ability to hear
image living life in a wheel chair
this used to be a tree
this used to be a tree
this used to be a tree
it was living just like me.

>grant me strength to except the things that i can not change

>only the strong shall survive
i'll be the first to strike a match
just pour the gasoline
another bar burns

>i'll burn this place to the ground
if anyone stands in my way
we weed the weak to bread the strong
this conviction is all i have left
here i stand
a broken man
body shaking and nothing left to give

>i've been chewing my tongue
i've been grinding my teeth
is there anything that separates me from the weak
i hurt myself to remind me i'm real

i've been mesmerized by your eyes
on second thought these all just might be lies
i know how this will end
we wont talk, we wont be friends

slowly drifting into the sea
i feel my mind wander these days
probably a little more then usual
i stare at things as if i can see right through them
this place is cold but i am colder
i look at people as the human waste that they really are
sexual deviants, drug addicts, liars and low lifes
gods unwanted children

id walk into the sea
just to free
my self from this misery